Wednesday, December 29, 2010

end of the first trimester

So, i am quickly getting larger and larger. my clothes are beginning to not be so comfortable, my muscles are sore when i get out of bed, i always feel tired, i have laughing fits that always result in bawling for no reason and im terrified.

but it will all be worth it
it will all be worth it when i can see their faces
it will all be worth it when i get to meet both of my little babies
it will all be worth it

Thursday, December 23, 2010

its going to be a new life

Sunday i noticed a huge purple bruise on the lower side of my belly and it really worried me, everyone was very supportive but i still had this little voice in the back of my head telling me it wasent right. i was getting ready for work on Tuesday and i began getting these sharp pains inside me. after it happened 3 times, i called work and let them know that i would be going to the hospital. after they rushed me through triage and registration i got my blood taken just as a precaution and then i waited for the ultrasound.

so im laying there, jelly all over my belly staring at the back of the monitor and quickly looking back and forth at the techs face to get some kind of reaction out of her. finally she just makes a "hmm" immediately i thought something was wrong with the baby, no heart beat...its dead!!!???? what???finally she turned to me and asked "is there a possibility you're having twins?" i didn't know what to i said i don't know!

she turned the monitor and there they were...two little circles holding two little baby bodies with their arms and legs moving and their little heart beats fluttering. i was in shock. i couldn't stop staring at the was amazing. tears came to my eyes and the tech was so happy to give the good news!

so merry christmas to dan and i...

when i told mom there was silence for a good 15 to 20 seconds and she was over the top happy for us! dan is so happy as well. we are both excited and nervous and worried and happy, it is a strange mixture of emotions. it will change a lot and it will be a challenge but on the other hand, we don't have a choice and we are strong, we can do this!!!