end of the first trimester

So, i am quickly getting larger and larger. my clothes are beginning to not be so comfortable, my muscles are sore when i get out of bed, i always feel tired, i have laughing fits that always result in bawling for no reason and im terrified.

but it will all be worth it
it will all be worth it when i can see their faces
it will all be worth it when i get to meet both of my little babies
it will all be worth it

its going to be a new life

Sunday i noticed a huge purple bruise on the lower side of my belly and it really worried me, everyone was very supportive but i still had this little voice in the back of my head telling me it wasent right. i was getting ready for work on Tuesday and i began getting these sharp pains inside me. after it happened 3 times, i called work and let them know that i would be going to the hospital. after they rushed me through triage and registration i got my blood taken just as a precaution and then i waited for the ultrasound.

so im laying there, jelly all over my belly staring at the back of the monitor and quickly looking back and forth at the techs face to get some kind of reaction out of her. finally she just makes a "hmm" immediately i thought something was wrong with the baby, no heart beat...its dead!!!???? what???finally she turned to me and asked "is there a possibility you're having twins?" i didn't know what to say...so i said i don't know!

she turned the monitor and there they were...two little circles holding two little baby bodies with their arms and legs moving and their little heart beats fluttering. i was in shock. i couldn't stop staring at the screen...it was amazing. tears came to my eyes and the tech was so happy to give the good news!

so merry christmas to dan and i...

when i told mom there was silence for a good 15 to 20 seconds and she was over the top happy for us! dan is so happy as well. we are both excited and nervous and worried and happy, it is a strange mixture of emotions. it will change a lot and it will be a challenge but on the other hand, we don't have a choice and we are strong, we can do this!!!

9 weeks old

flipper baby

ive been pretty lucky i have only had a woozy stomach a couple of times and knock on wood i have not thrown up yet. my mine complaint right now is how tired i am. i wake up tired, i go to work tired and go to bed exausted. i guess making a human being is a lot of work for your body. i can definatly start feeling the changes in my stomach and body getting ready for this little one to make a home in there for nine months.

a week ago i went and got about 8 viles of blood taken and i had my doctors appointment today. looks like i am in very good health, all my organs are working great and there were no abnormalities. thank god.

so from what ive read, my little baby has a tiny hole where its mouth will be, the umbilical cord is developing and it has stumpy arms that resemble flippers. it has tiny beady eyes on either side of its head and its about the size of a tic tac.

i cannot wait to see the first ultrasound.

It Finally Happened

Monday November 8th:
I was feeling a bit weird and i was definatly late so on Monday morning the first thing i did was take a test. the results were quick and obvious. POSITIVE. i went into the bedroom and told dan about the amazing news and i quickly got ready to go get some blood taken.
unfortunately i had to work twelve hours monday and tuesday and i was bursting at the seams to tell someone about and eventually i did. im pretty sure it was written all over my face.
so on Wednesday we made our way to Carleton Place and we told my mom and dad, they already had an idea but they were still so happy for us.
thursday i got the results back to say that yes indeed i was pregnant. i guess i just needed someone in the professional feild to tell me i was so it felt a bit more real.
Friday we told Dans mom and dad and of course they were exstatic as well.
i have some nauseau and cramping and im starting to get really tired really fast but i cannot wait to start showing and then eventually meeting this little creature.
right now its about the size of a grain of rice.